what would I want? earth.

it tries to steal
your gaze
to make you look up
to the sky
for Christ
the alien
for symbols burning
holes in
the atmosphere
to make you forget
everything that
makes you feel small
and beautiful
but it too
will be swallowed by
hallowed chthonic
earth
it's already staggering
in the valleys
feeling fear
in bright flowing
chasms
it begins to feel small
and beautiful
so beautiful

damn devil's tower

there's a bear
a damn big bear
you know
with balls as
big as
antique globes
says I belong
in Siberia
the people there
have a new star
good for
praying they say
I just want
one more
night in Texas
to pound my head
red and flat
put it in
the oven
with the other
shriveled
heads
wash down the old
stars with
reindeer piss
and fall out of
some back
door cathedral
I know Jim
Morrison will
be there
laughing at me
with a big
idiot grin
and a tower will
rise from
the rock
and Jim
that ugly old bear
will scratch at
the sky
caught in a dream
where fools roar as
they drown
where hot evil
breath
becomes music
where the bones of
dreamers are crushed
and bound
with Siberian
stardust
carried away
some say
by an
eagle
mad for its own
myth

sheepchallenge

Meat, by Terry Bisson, 1990

Stolen from: http://www.terrybisson.com

wolftufts

Recently we visited Hamilton's Pool in Dripping Springs, Texas to each bury a bit of hair from a fallen friend however we saw fit. I buried my share under some rocks at the base of an old tree next to a cool stream. Here are the pictures I took:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/54504506@N06/sets/72157624972506959/

lucifer paper

the others are
turning brown
I see it
in a gentler
sort of light
come along little ones
I am also small
and it's fall
for the first
time

blues blues,

a poet doesn't
think in words
he thinks in poetry
just as a vulture dreams
only through the taste
of things
why, I'm sure
the best of them never
thought a day
in their lives

Blake wasn't
a philosopher except
when his woman bled
from her deeper
eye and
felt her true age

Shelley drank
the saltwater of
his mind
and then he drowned
they burned him on
the beach
and he was ash
dry dry ash
and he no longer drank
anything

Rumi never
drank
he had wine
and no cups
he drank it all
and drank
nothing

he didn't think
and these spinning
freaks
they didn't drink
drinking's for thinking
men or men pretending
to think
drinking can slow
down the word
so that it may
be captured

but this is not
poetry
this is thinking
even Bukowski knew that
when he looks you in
the eye
and tells you why
why it's you
asking why

Kerouac was tragedy
a thinking man
and that's why
he's dead
other people have died for
better reasons

now we can only
drink in Kerouac
become drunk on pope
and dharma
and forlorn rags round
holy mirrors
pity him
pity what's left of
jazz in roaming
belltowers
pity like rain is
the pity of a valley
pity that it's just
shadows
cleaving meat
from bone

he's the reason why
I sleep
and eat the pulp of
you
and piss on
butterflies
and piss off
butterflies
and do even more
ordinary things
voluptuous
and plain

I don't write about
being human
much less try to
be one
I only get high and
so very
young
and plain
too plain to choose
to pour
to name revolutions that
arise
in dirty bathrooms
that humid hell
with no
mirrors

but I know why
Kerouac
asked why
it's so big in
here
and you lose it
whatever you thought
you had
you lose the score as soon
as you make it
while the king of
dreams
marches down on you
on elephants
that burrow into mineral
mind

and pull turnips from
your soft
white belly and
string the night with swaying
paper lanterns laughing
with cruelty in
the breeze

you think about people
suffering
and you drink
because you are not
a bodhisattva
your heart is too damn
big not to beg
for something
you want to heal but
you're too busy thinking
about it
too busy caring to do
anything
about it

you're a beast
poor beast
mouth full of blood
rosary streaming
from your
rear

you write about
pretty things
and they come back
to haunt you
or something less
clear
something worse

every time you write about
someone they're dying
in your
arms
you want to be a serpent
somewhere
under a moon
somewhere
just feeling your way
about it

but people want to believe
something
and they hurt each
other with
thought-desire
they crawl indignant from the
lion's mouth and beat
the everypagan
with the weight of
beauty
they bludgeon themselves
with it
just to hurt
others

Nietzsche himself could
have whipped
the horse's eyes
and who
would have cared?
we're all starving
artists
too mad for love and
standing in
its way
too brave to kiss
fear
atomic
old
fear

too wise to not think
about it
to drink with it
it's us
you know
we are the ones
we're waiting for
but we waited so long we
forget
we say we don't want to think
about it
and we think
about it

and we don't
stop
thinking
drinking
making children
dying in their arms
like it was always
supposed to
be

you could always whip
the poet's eyes
and have a
drink
on me