All of you here! Believe that your own mind is Buddha. This very mind is buddha-mind.
Water Dissolves Water: Baso Döitsu
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Water Dissolves Water: Baso Döitsu
Water Dissolves Water: Baso Döitsu
Stuff
Stuff is a short documentary of John Frusciante's house. It was made in 1993 by Johnny Depp and the lead singer of the Butthole Surfers, Gibby Haynes. Dr. Timothy Leary is also present in the video. The film's main purpose was to depict the chaos of Frusciante's life. It was once aired in a Dutch TV show called Lola Da Musica, and was released in the '90s as a rare promo VHS. "Untitled #2" from Frusciante's Niandra LaDes and Usually Just a T-Shirt is featured on this film with a poem read over it. Also featured in the film is an otherwise unreleased Frusciante song.Video: http://vimeo.com/8992318
Friday, April 8, 2011
The Sand Trip
Frank Herbert, despite his books selling millions of copies, somehow is often excluded from mentions of the great sci-fi writers. Perhaps it is because he is so very much more than that. Exotic technology is discussed, but it is not more advanced, just adapted to different environments. The cultures on his various planets seem at once primitive and refined. And technology is never the point, or even the center. There's also no black and white displays of good vs evil. This is no Star Wars.
What he does write about is how perception can be organized and how it shapes human history over countless millenia. He writes of people with profound sensitivity, surpassing even the greatest yogis, able to monitor with detail every bodily process as it occurs. Naturally, because perception is the focus, and one must include the different ways perception is influenced, drugs factor in regularly. The following is a fictional trip report I've copied from the first Dune Book. At this point, Jessica, the mother of the future prophet/god/emperor Muad'Dib, must go through the hallucinogenic rites of a desert tribe so that she may become privy to all the currents of the universe that are so much vaster than a mere few lifetimes. Enjoy.
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"Sayyadina Jessica," Chani said.
Jessica turned to see the girl staring up at her.
"Have you tasted the blessed water?" Chani asked.
Before Jessica could answer, Chani said: "It is not possible that you have tasted the blessed
water. You are outworlder and unprivileged."
A sigh passed through the crowd, a sussuration of robes that made the nape hairs creep
on Jessica’s neck.
"The crop was large and the maker has been destroyed," Chani said. She began unfastening
a coiled spout fixed to the top of the sloshing sack.
Now, Jessica felt the sense of danger boiling around her. She glanced at Paul, saw that he
was caught up in the mystery of the ritual and had eyes only for Chani.
Has he seen this moment in time? Jessica wondered. She rested a hand on her abdomen,
thinking of the unborn daughter there, asking herself: Do I have the right to risk us both?
Chani lifted the spout toward Jessica, said: "Here is the Water of Life, the water that is
greater than water–Kan, the water that frees the soul. If you be a Reverend Mother, it opens
the universe to you. Let Shai-hulud judge now."
Jessica felt herself torn between duty to her unborn child and duty to Paul. For Paul, she
knew, she should take that spout and drink of the sack’s contents, but as she bent to the proffered
spout, her senses told her its peril.
The stuff in the sack had a bitter smell subtly akin to many poisons that she knew, but unlike
them, too.
"You must drink it now," Chani said.
There’s no turning back, Jessica reminded herself. But nothing in all her Bene Gesserit
training came into her mind to help her through this instant.
What is it? Jessica asked, herself. Liquor? A drug?
She bent over the spout, smelled the esters of cinnamon, remembering then the drunkenness
of Duncan Idaho. Spice liquor? she asked herself. She took the siphon tube in her mouth,
pulled up only the most minuscule sip. It tasted of the spice, a faint bite acrid on the tongue.
Chani pressed down on the skin bag. A great gulp of the stuff surged into Jessica’s mouth
and before she could help herself, she swallowed it, fighting to retain her calmness and dignity.
"To accept a little death is worse than death itself," Chani said. She stared at Jessica,
waiting.
And Jessica stared back, still holding the spout in her mouth. She tasted the sack’s contents
in her nostrils, in the roof of her mouth, in her cheeks, in her eyes–a biting sweetness, now.
Cool.
Again, Chani sent the liquid gushing into Jessica’s mouth.
Delicate.
Jessica studied Chani’s face–elfin features–seeing the traces of Liet- Kynes there as yet un-fixed by time.
This is a drug they feed me, Jessica told herself.
But it was unlike any other drug of her experience, and Bene Gesserit training included the
taste of many drugs.
Chani’s features were so clear, as though outlined in light.
A drug.
Whirling silence settled around Jessica. Every fiber of her body accepted the fact that
something profound had happened to it. She felt that she was a conscious mote, smaller
than any subatomic particle, yet capable of motion and of sensing her surroundings. Like
an abrupt revelation–the curtains whipped away–she realized she had become aware of a
psychokinesthetic extension of herself. She was the mote, yet not the mote.
The cavern remained around her–the people. She sensed them: Paul, Chani, Stilgar, the
Reverend Mother Ramallo.
Reverend Mother!
At the school there had been rumors that some did not survive the Reverend Mother ordeal,
that the drug took them.
Jessica focused her attention on the Reverend Mother Ramallo, aware now that all this was
happening in a frozen instant of time–suspended time for her alone.
Why is time suspended? she asked herself. She stared at the frozen expressions around
her, seeing a dust mote above Chani’s head, stopped there.
Waiting.
The answer to this instant came like an explosion in her consciousness: her personal time
was suspended to save her life.
She focused on the psychokinesthetic extension of herself, looking within, and was confronted
immediately with a cellular core, a pit of blackness from which she recoiled.
That is the place where we cannot look, she thought. There is the place the Reverend
Mothers are so reluctant to mention–the place where only a Kwisatz Haderach may look.
This realization returned a small measure of confidence, and again she ventured to focus
on the psychokinesthetic extension, becoming a mote-self that searched within her for danger.
She found it within the drug she had swallowed.
The stuff was dancing particles within her, its motions so rapid that even frozen time could
not stop them. Dancing particles. She began recognizing familiar structures, atomic linkages:
a carbon atom here, helical wavering . . . a glucose molecule. An entire chain of molecules
confronted her, and she recognized a protein . . . a methyl-protein configuration.
Ah-h-h!
It was a soundless mental sigh within her as she saw the nature of the poison.
With her psychokinesthetic probing, she moved into it, shifted an oxygen mote, allowed
another carbon mote to link, reattached a linkage of oxygen . . . hydrogen.
The change spread . . . faster and faster as the catalyzed reaction opened its surface of
contact.
The suspension of time relaxed its hold upon her, and she sensed motion. The tube spout
from the sack was touched to her mouth–gently, collecting a drop of moisture.
Chani’s taking the catalyst from my body to change the poison in that sack, Jessica thought.
Why?
Someone eased her to a sitting position. She saw the old Reverend Mother Ramallo being
brought to sit beside her on the carpeted ledge. A dry hand touched her neck.
And there was another psychokinesthetic mote within her awareness! Jessica tried to reject
it, but the mote swept closer . . . closer.
They touched!
It was like an ultimate simpatico, being two people at once: not telepathy, but mutual
awareness.
With the old Reverend Mother!
But Jessica saw that the Reverend Mother didn’t think of herself as old. An image unfolded
before the mutual mind’s eye: a young girl with a dancing spirit and tender humor.
Within the mutual awareness, the young girl said, "Yes, that is how I am."
Jessica could only accept the words, not respond to them.
"You’ll have it all soon, Jessica," the inward image said.
This is hallucination, Jessica told herself.
"You know better than that," the inward image said. "Swiftly now, do not fight me. There
isn’t much time. We . . . " There came a long pause, then; "You should’ve told us you were
pregnant!"
Jessica found the voice that talked within the mutual awareness. "Why?"
"This changes both of you! Holy Mother, what have we done?"
Jessica sensed a forced shift in the mutual awareness, saw another mote- presence with the
inward eye. The other mote darted wildly here, there, circling. It radiated pure terror.
"You’ll have to be strong," the old Reverend Mother’s image-presence said. "Be thankful it’s
a daughter you carry. This would’ve killed a male fetus. Now . . . carefully, gently . . . touch
your daughter-presence. Be your daughter- presence. Absorb the fear . . . soothe . . . use
your courage and your strength . . . gently now . . . gently . . . "
The other whirling mote swept near, and Jessica compelled herself to touch it.
Terror threatened to overwhelm her.
She fought it the only way she knew: "I shall not fear. Fear is the mind killer . . . "
The litany brought a semblance of calm. The other mote lay quiescent against her.
Words won’t work, Jessica told herself.
She reduced herself to basic emotional reactions, radiated love, comfort, a warm snuggling
of protection.
The terror receded.
Again, the presence of the old Reverend Mother asserted itself, but now there was a tripling
of mutual awareness–two active and one that lay quietly absorbing.
"Time compels me," the Reverend Mother said within the awareness. "I have much to give
you. And I do not know if your daughter can accept all this while remaining sane. But it must
be: the needs of the tribe are paramount."
"What–"
"Remain silent and accept!"
Experiences began to unroll before Jessica. It was like a lecture strip in a subliminal training
projector at the Bene Gesserit school . . . but faster . . . blindingly faster.
Yet . . . distinct.
She knew each experience as it happened: there was a lover–virile, bearded, with the
Fremen eyes, and Jessica saw his strength and tenderness, all of him in one blink-moment,
through the Reverend Mother’s memory.
There was no time now to think of what this might be doing to the daughter fetus, only
time to accept and record. The experiences poured in on Jessica– birth, life, death–important
matters and unimportant, an outpouring of single- view time.
Why should a fall of sand from a clifftop stick in the memory? she asked herself.
Too late, Jessica saw what was happening: the old woman was dying and, in dying,
pouring her experiences into Jessica’s awareness as water is poured into a cup. The other
mote faded back into pre-birth awareness as Jessica watched it. And, dying-in-conception, the
old Reverend Mother left her life in Jessica’s memory with one last sighing blur of words.
"I’ve been a long time waiting for you," she said. "Here is my life."
There it was, encapsuled, all of it.
Even the moment of death.
I am now a Reverend Mother, Jessica realized.
And she knew with a generalized awareness that she had become, in truth, precisely what
was meant by a Bene Gesserit Reverend Mother. The poison drug had transformed her.
This wasn’t exactly how they did it at the Bene Gesserit school, she knew. No one had ever
introduced her to the mysteries of it, but she knew.
The end result was the same.
Jessica sensed the daughter-mote still touching her inner awareness, probed it without response.
A terrible sense of loneliness crept through Jessica in the realization of what had happened
to her. She saw her own life as a pattern that had slowed and all life around her speeded up
so that the dancing interplay became clearer.
The sensation of mote-awareness faded slightly, its intensity easing as her body relaxed from
the threat of the poison, but still she felt that other mote, touching it with a sense of guilt at what
she had allowed to happen to it.
I did it, my poor, unformed, dear little daughter, I brought you into this universe and exposed
your awareness to all its varieties without any defenses.
A tiny out owing of love-comfort, like a re ection of what she had poured into it, came from
the other mote.
Before Jessica could respond, she felt the adab presence of demanding memory. There
was something that needed doing. She groped for it, realizing she was being impeded by a
muzziness of the changed drug permeating her senses.
I could change that, she thought. I could take away the drug action and make it harmless.
But she sensed this would be an error. I’m within a rite of joining.
Then she knew what she had to do.
Jessica opened her eyes, gestured to the watersack now being held above her by Chani.
"It has been blessed," Jessica said. "Mingle the waters, let the change come to all, that the
people may partake and share in the blessing."
Let the catalyst do its work, she thought. Let the people drink of it and have their awareness
of each other heightened for awhile. The drug is safe now . . . now that a Reverend Mother
has changed it.
Still, the demanding memory worked on her, thrusting. There was another thing she had to
do, she realized, but the drug made it difficult to focus.
Ah-h-h-h-h . . . the old Reverend Mother.
"I have met the Reverend Mother Ramallo," Jessica said. "She is gone, but she remains. Let
her memory be honored in the rite.
Now, where did I get those words? Jessica wondered.
And she realized they came from another memory, the life that had been given to her and
now was part of herself. Something about that gift felt incomplete, though.
"Let them have their orgy," the other-memory said within her. "They’ve little enough pleasure
out of living. Yes, and you and I need this little time to become acquainted before I recede
and pour out through your memories. Already, I feel myself being tied to bits of you. Ah-h-h,
you’ve a mind filled with interesting things. So many things I’d never imagined."
And the memory-mind encapsulated within her opened itself to Jessica, permitting a view
down a wide corridor to other Reverend Mothers until there seemed no end to them.
Jessica recoiled, fearing she would become lost in an ocean of oneness. Still, the corridor
remained, revealing to Jessica that the Fremen culture was far older than she had suspected.
There had been Fremen on Poritrin, she saw, a people grown soft with an easy planet, fair
game for Imperial raiders to harvest and plant human colonies on Bela Tegeuse and Salusa
Secundus.
Oh, the wailing Jessica sensed in that parting.
Far down the corridor, an image-voice screamed: "They denied us the Hajj!"
Jessica saw the slave cribs on Bela Tegeuse down that inner corridor, saw the weeding
out and the selecting that spread men to Rossak and Harmonthep. Scenes of brutal ferocity
opened to her like the petals of a terrible ower. And she saw the thread of the past carried by
Sayyadina after Sayyadina–first by word of mouth, hidden in the sand chanteys, then refined
through their own Reverend Mothers with the discovery of the poison drug on Rossak . . . and
now developed to subtle strengthen Arrakis in the discovery of the Water of Life.
Far down the inner corridor, another voice screamed: "Never to forgive! Never to forget!"
But Jessica’s attention was focused on the revelation of the Water of Life, seeing its source:
the liquid exhalation of a dying sandworm, a maker. And as she saw the killing of it in her
new memory, she suppressed a gasp.
The creature was drowned!
"Mother, are you all right?"
Paul’s voice intruded on her, and Jessica struggled out of the inner awareness to stare up at
him, conscious of duty to him, but resenting his presence.
I’m like a person whose hands were kept numb, without sensation from the first moment of
awareness–until one day the ability to feel is forced into them.
The thought hung in her mind, an enclosing awareness.
And I say: "Look! I have no hands!" But the people all around me say: "What are hands?"
"
"Are you all right?" Paul repeated.
"Yes."
What he does write about is how perception can be organized and how it shapes human history over countless millenia. He writes of people with profound sensitivity, surpassing even the greatest yogis, able to monitor with detail every bodily process as it occurs. Naturally, because perception is the focus, and one must include the different ways perception is influenced, drugs factor in regularly. The following is a fictional trip report I've copied from the first Dune Book. At this point, Jessica, the mother of the future prophet/god/emperor Muad'Dib, must go through the hallucinogenic rites of a desert tribe so that she may become privy to all the currents of the universe that are so much vaster than a mere few lifetimes. Enjoy.
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"Sayyadina Jessica," Chani said.
Jessica turned to see the girl staring up at her.
"Have you tasted the blessed water?" Chani asked.
Before Jessica could answer, Chani said: "It is not possible that you have tasted the blessed
water. You are outworlder and unprivileged."
A sigh passed through the crowd, a sussuration of robes that made the nape hairs creep
on Jessica’s neck.
"The crop was large and the maker has been destroyed," Chani said. She began unfastening
a coiled spout fixed to the top of the sloshing sack.
Now, Jessica felt the sense of danger boiling around her. She glanced at Paul, saw that he
was caught up in the mystery of the ritual and had eyes only for Chani.
Has he seen this moment in time? Jessica wondered. She rested a hand on her abdomen,
thinking of the unborn daughter there, asking herself: Do I have the right to risk us both?
Chani lifted the spout toward Jessica, said: "Here is the Water of Life, the water that is
greater than water–Kan, the water that frees the soul. If you be a Reverend Mother, it opens
the universe to you. Let Shai-hulud judge now."
Jessica felt herself torn between duty to her unborn child and duty to Paul. For Paul, she
knew, she should take that spout and drink of the sack’s contents, but as she bent to the proffered
spout, her senses told her its peril.
The stuff in the sack had a bitter smell subtly akin to many poisons that she knew, but unlike
them, too.
"You must drink it now," Chani said.
There’s no turning back, Jessica reminded herself. But nothing in all her Bene Gesserit
training came into her mind to help her through this instant.
What is it? Jessica asked, herself. Liquor? A drug?
She bent over the spout, smelled the esters of cinnamon, remembering then the drunkenness
of Duncan Idaho. Spice liquor? she asked herself. She took the siphon tube in her mouth,
pulled up only the most minuscule sip. It tasted of the spice, a faint bite acrid on the tongue.
Chani pressed down on the skin bag. A great gulp of the stuff surged into Jessica’s mouth
and before she could help herself, she swallowed it, fighting to retain her calmness and dignity.
"To accept a little death is worse than death itself," Chani said. She stared at Jessica,
waiting.
And Jessica stared back, still holding the spout in her mouth. She tasted the sack’s contents
in her nostrils, in the roof of her mouth, in her cheeks, in her eyes–a biting sweetness, now.
Cool.
Again, Chani sent the liquid gushing into Jessica’s mouth.
Delicate.
Jessica studied Chani’s face–elfin features–seeing the traces of Liet- Kynes there as yet un-fixed by time.
This is a drug they feed me, Jessica told herself.
But it was unlike any other drug of her experience, and Bene Gesserit training included the
taste of many drugs.
Chani’s features were so clear, as though outlined in light.
A drug.
Whirling silence settled around Jessica. Every fiber of her body accepted the fact that
something profound had happened to it. She felt that she was a conscious mote, smaller
than any subatomic particle, yet capable of motion and of sensing her surroundings. Like
an abrupt revelation–the curtains whipped away–she realized she had become aware of a
psychokinesthetic extension of herself. She was the mote, yet not the mote.
The cavern remained around her–the people. She sensed them: Paul, Chani, Stilgar, the
Reverend Mother Ramallo.
Reverend Mother!
At the school there had been rumors that some did not survive the Reverend Mother ordeal,
that the drug took them.
Jessica focused her attention on the Reverend Mother Ramallo, aware now that all this was
happening in a frozen instant of time–suspended time for her alone.
Why is time suspended? she asked herself. She stared at the frozen expressions around
her, seeing a dust mote above Chani’s head, stopped there.
Waiting.
The answer to this instant came like an explosion in her consciousness: her personal time
was suspended to save her life.
She focused on the psychokinesthetic extension of herself, looking within, and was confronted
immediately with a cellular core, a pit of blackness from which she recoiled.
That is the place where we cannot look, she thought. There is the place the Reverend
Mothers are so reluctant to mention–the place where only a Kwisatz Haderach may look.
This realization returned a small measure of confidence, and again she ventured to focus
on the psychokinesthetic extension, becoming a mote-self that searched within her for danger.
She found it within the drug she had swallowed.
The stuff was dancing particles within her, its motions so rapid that even frozen time could
not stop them. Dancing particles. She began recognizing familiar structures, atomic linkages:
a carbon atom here, helical wavering . . . a glucose molecule. An entire chain of molecules
confronted her, and she recognized a protein . . . a methyl-protein configuration.
Ah-h-h!
It was a soundless mental sigh within her as she saw the nature of the poison.
With her psychokinesthetic probing, she moved into it, shifted an oxygen mote, allowed
another carbon mote to link, reattached a linkage of oxygen . . . hydrogen.
The change spread . . . faster and faster as the catalyzed reaction opened its surface of
contact.
The suspension of time relaxed its hold upon her, and she sensed motion. The tube spout
from the sack was touched to her mouth–gently, collecting a drop of moisture.
Chani’s taking the catalyst from my body to change the poison in that sack, Jessica thought.
Why?
Someone eased her to a sitting position. She saw the old Reverend Mother Ramallo being
brought to sit beside her on the carpeted ledge. A dry hand touched her neck.
And there was another psychokinesthetic mote within her awareness! Jessica tried to reject
it, but the mote swept closer . . . closer.
They touched!
It was like an ultimate simpatico, being two people at once: not telepathy, but mutual
awareness.
With the old Reverend Mother!
But Jessica saw that the Reverend Mother didn’t think of herself as old. An image unfolded
before the mutual mind’s eye: a young girl with a dancing spirit and tender humor.
Within the mutual awareness, the young girl said, "Yes, that is how I am."
Jessica could only accept the words, not respond to them.
"You’ll have it all soon, Jessica," the inward image said.
This is hallucination, Jessica told herself.
"You know better than that," the inward image said. "Swiftly now, do not fight me. There
isn’t much time. We . . . " There came a long pause, then; "You should’ve told us you were
pregnant!"
Jessica found the voice that talked within the mutual awareness. "Why?"
"This changes both of you! Holy Mother, what have we done?"
Jessica sensed a forced shift in the mutual awareness, saw another mote- presence with the
inward eye. The other mote darted wildly here, there, circling. It radiated pure terror.
"You’ll have to be strong," the old Reverend Mother’s image-presence said. "Be thankful it’s
a daughter you carry. This would’ve killed a male fetus. Now . . . carefully, gently . . . touch
your daughter-presence. Be your daughter- presence. Absorb the fear . . . soothe . . . use
your courage and your strength . . . gently now . . . gently . . . "
The other whirling mote swept near, and Jessica compelled herself to touch it.
Terror threatened to overwhelm her.
She fought it the only way she knew: "I shall not fear. Fear is the mind killer . . . "
The litany brought a semblance of calm. The other mote lay quiescent against her.
Words won’t work, Jessica told herself.
She reduced herself to basic emotional reactions, radiated love, comfort, a warm snuggling
of protection.
The terror receded.
Again, the presence of the old Reverend Mother asserted itself, but now there was a tripling
of mutual awareness–two active and one that lay quietly absorbing.
"Time compels me," the Reverend Mother said within the awareness. "I have much to give
you. And I do not know if your daughter can accept all this while remaining sane. But it must
be: the needs of the tribe are paramount."
"What–"
"Remain silent and accept!"
Experiences began to unroll before Jessica. It was like a lecture strip in a subliminal training
projector at the Bene Gesserit school . . . but faster . . . blindingly faster.
Yet . . . distinct.
She knew each experience as it happened: there was a lover–virile, bearded, with the
Fremen eyes, and Jessica saw his strength and tenderness, all of him in one blink-moment,
through the Reverend Mother’s memory.
There was no time now to think of what this might be doing to the daughter fetus, only
time to accept and record. The experiences poured in on Jessica– birth, life, death–important
matters and unimportant, an outpouring of single- view time.
Why should a fall of sand from a clifftop stick in the memory? she asked herself.
Too late, Jessica saw what was happening: the old woman was dying and, in dying,
pouring her experiences into Jessica’s awareness as water is poured into a cup. The other
mote faded back into pre-birth awareness as Jessica watched it. And, dying-in-conception, the
old Reverend Mother left her life in Jessica’s memory with one last sighing blur of words.
"I’ve been a long time waiting for you," she said. "Here is my life."
There it was, encapsuled, all of it.
Even the moment of death.
I am now a Reverend Mother, Jessica realized.
And she knew with a generalized awareness that she had become, in truth, precisely what
was meant by a Bene Gesserit Reverend Mother. The poison drug had transformed her.
This wasn’t exactly how they did it at the Bene Gesserit school, she knew. No one had ever
introduced her to the mysteries of it, but she knew.
The end result was the same.
Jessica sensed the daughter-mote still touching her inner awareness, probed it without response.
A terrible sense of loneliness crept through Jessica in the realization of what had happened
to her. She saw her own life as a pattern that had slowed and all life around her speeded up
so that the dancing interplay became clearer.
The sensation of mote-awareness faded slightly, its intensity easing as her body relaxed from
the threat of the poison, but still she felt that other mote, touching it with a sense of guilt at what
she had allowed to happen to it.
I did it, my poor, unformed, dear little daughter, I brought you into this universe and exposed
your awareness to all its varieties without any defenses.
A tiny out owing of love-comfort, like a re ection of what she had poured into it, came from
the other mote.
Before Jessica could respond, she felt the adab presence of demanding memory. There
was something that needed doing. She groped for it, realizing she was being impeded by a
muzziness of the changed drug permeating her senses.
I could change that, she thought. I could take away the drug action and make it harmless.
But she sensed this would be an error. I’m within a rite of joining.
Then she knew what she had to do.
Jessica opened her eyes, gestured to the watersack now being held above her by Chani.
"It has been blessed," Jessica said. "Mingle the waters, let the change come to all, that the
people may partake and share in the blessing."
Let the catalyst do its work, she thought. Let the people drink of it and have their awareness
of each other heightened for awhile. The drug is safe now . . . now that a Reverend Mother
has changed it.
Still, the demanding memory worked on her, thrusting. There was another thing she had to
do, she realized, but the drug made it difficult to focus.
Ah-h-h-h-h . . . the old Reverend Mother.
"I have met the Reverend Mother Ramallo," Jessica said. "She is gone, but she remains. Let
her memory be honored in the rite.
Now, where did I get those words? Jessica wondered.
And she realized they came from another memory, the life that had been given to her and
now was part of herself. Something about that gift felt incomplete, though.
"Let them have their orgy," the other-memory said within her. "They’ve little enough pleasure
out of living. Yes, and you and I need this little time to become acquainted before I recede
and pour out through your memories. Already, I feel myself being tied to bits of you. Ah-h-h,
you’ve a mind filled with interesting things. So many things I’d never imagined."
And the memory-mind encapsulated within her opened itself to Jessica, permitting a view
down a wide corridor to other Reverend Mothers until there seemed no end to them.
Jessica recoiled, fearing she would become lost in an ocean of oneness. Still, the corridor
remained, revealing to Jessica that the Fremen culture was far older than she had suspected.
There had been Fremen on Poritrin, she saw, a people grown soft with an easy planet, fair
game for Imperial raiders to harvest and plant human colonies on Bela Tegeuse and Salusa
Secundus.
Oh, the wailing Jessica sensed in that parting.
Far down the corridor, an image-voice screamed: "They denied us the Hajj!"
Jessica saw the slave cribs on Bela Tegeuse down that inner corridor, saw the weeding
out and the selecting that spread men to Rossak and Harmonthep. Scenes of brutal ferocity
opened to her like the petals of a terrible ower. And she saw the thread of the past carried by
Sayyadina after Sayyadina–first by word of mouth, hidden in the sand chanteys, then refined
through their own Reverend Mothers with the discovery of the poison drug on Rossak . . . and
now developed to subtle strengthen Arrakis in the discovery of the Water of Life.
Far down the inner corridor, another voice screamed: "Never to forgive! Never to forget!"
But Jessica’s attention was focused on the revelation of the Water of Life, seeing its source:
the liquid exhalation of a dying sandworm, a maker. And as she saw the killing of it in her
new memory, she suppressed a gasp.
The creature was drowned!
"Mother, are you all right?"
Paul’s voice intruded on her, and Jessica struggled out of the inner awareness to stare up at
him, conscious of duty to him, but resenting his presence.
I’m like a person whose hands were kept numb, without sensation from the first moment of
awareness–until one day the ability to feel is forced into them.
The thought hung in her mind, an enclosing awareness.
And I say: "Look! I have no hands!" But the people all around me say: "What are hands?"
"
"Are you all right?" Paul repeated.
"Yes."
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
“Violence” - some words from the Buddha before his enlightenment
"Everyone is guilty." But not in the Catholic sense. A Buddhist takes responsibility for their own heart.
From here: http://zenjournal.tumblr.com/post/4349403030/violence-some-words-from-the-buddha-before-his
From here: http://zenjournal.tumblr.com/post/4349403030/violence-some-words-from-the-buddha-before-his
Violence gives birth to fear.
Just look at people and their quarrels.
I will speak of my dismay
And the way that I was shaken.
Seeing people thrashing about like fish in little water
And seeing them in conflict with each other,
I became afraid.
The world is completely without a core.
Everywhere things are changing.
Wanting a place of my own,
I saw nothing not already taken.
I felt discontent at seeing only conflict to the very end.
Then I saw an arrow — hard to see,
Embedded in the heart.
Pierced by this arrow, people dash about in all directions.
When the arrow is pulled out,
The do not run, and they do not sink.
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Interpretation and elaboration:
“The radical suggestion is… that the issue is in your own heart. That’s what triggers the running around… it is obvious that many people are not willing to look at some part of themselves. They get involved in addictive behaviors, they get very busy with work, social relationships, entertainment… The fear resides in our own hearts or minds. The task in Buddhism is that it’s REALLY useful to take that arrow out, to take responsibility for what’s in here… to find the roots of our distress. Someone has to do it.Gil Fronsdal from a recent Zencast.org talk, “Our Attachments, given at the Insight Meditation Center.
…
“We try to help the world the best we can… one of the ways we help is to have done the inner work so that we can meet the world calmly and peacefully… to support people and help people by being calm and peaceful in times of distress. If we’re running around in dismay, then we can’t really help people.”
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